Title: New Beginnings
Author: Kyoko Godaikun
Disclaimer: I don’t own Domoto Koichi or Domoto Tsuyoshi. They own each other.
Warning: This story contains Bishonnen Ai. Do not read if you are offended by Male/male love
Warning two: This story discusses non-consensual sexual abuse and violence. Do not read if you are offended by this
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Time: Summer 1996
Domoto Tsuyoshi was cleaning the main room of the senior
dorms. It was a fairly easy job. He
didn't mind. He thought of it as keeping himself useful. So when everyone else
was enjoying the Saturday afternoon, he was working. He ha
"Are you sure you don't want me to help?" Okada Junichi asked from a table in the corner.
"It's okay, finish your homework." He gave a
half smile. He could see himself in
Okada. Perhaps it was because they both where from the Kinki region. They could
speak to each other, and no one woul
"Why do you do this everyday?" The teenager
asked. He had all of his school books out on the table. Because of his busy
schedule he ha
"When you get my age, you'll understand." Tsuyoshi went to the next table. There wasn't as much trash on it. Just a few paper towels and a plate was on it.
"You're not old! You're only a year and a half older then me!' The teenager insisted.
Tsuyoshi gave another smile. His friend still didn't
realize an idol ha
"You know, if you don't get back to work, you'll never be able to have some free time." Tsuyoshi teased.
"You sound just like Yuki-chan. I mean Sakamoto." Okada corrected quickly.
Tsuyoshi gave another smile. He knew that Okada had a huge crush on his V6 leader. "See, you should listen to your sempai's."
"Yes sir." Okada went back to his homework.
His fellow Kinki Kid came into the room. Even on a Saturday afternoon, Koichi was impeccably dressed. His casual clothes made him look like a male model. Koichi had always taken pride in his looks. The Kinki Kids where one of the top groups in the agency. Tsuyoshi knew that most of their popularity rested on his handsome friend's shoulders.
Koichi gave his partner the look, as he thought of it. The look was a long lingering sweep of his body. One that made him feel as if he was nude. "How's the cleaning coming?"
"Great." He nodded at Okada. The young man was
his friend, but he knew he couldn't trust him fully. He ha
Koichi gave him a half smile. "Tsuyoshi, can you help me check the rice?"
"I'm busy." It was a game they played. Koichi
was in charge of the rice, but that was an extremely easy chore. His need of
help was more about the nee
"There are bags and bags of rice. I'll need some help." Koichi paused. "Please."
"I could use a break." Tsuyoshi smiled. He got
to his feet and walke
*Why can't he leave well enough alone?* He asked himself.
A few seconds later, Koichi followed. He joine
Koichi grabbed Tsuyoshi and shoved him against the sacks of rice. He began to kiss him passionately.
His lips left his friend's, and he began to nuzzle his
neck. "I've neede
"So have I." Tsuyoshi dug his fingers into his friend's hair.
"Tsu-chan, I want to make love to you." Koichi rubbed himself against Tsuyoshi. Through his thin shorts, he could feel Koichi's hardness.
Tsuyoshi pulled away from Koichi. He turned his back to him. “This is against the rules."
"If we love each other, what do the rules matter?" he asked. "We've been sneaking around for a long time. Don't you want to be my lover?"
"Of course I do!"
"Then why don't we?" Koichi put his arms around Tsuyoshi's waist, his hand reached around caressing the younger man's hardness. Tsuyoshi moaned, and pushed himself against his friend. "I'm tired of waiting."
It took all of Tsuyoshi's will to break away from Koichi. "If we're caught, I’ll be forbidden to see you. I can't loose you!"
"No one's here. We won't get caught." Koichi put his arms back around Tsuyoshi.
"Okada watched us come in here." Tsuyoshi reminded him. "He's the Manager's spy. We'll get in trouble."
"You're right." Koichi grudgingly agreed.
Tsuyoshi made up his mind. "I do want you to make love to me."
"Why don't we tonight? After curfew come to my bed." Koichi let go of him. "I just wish we could really be going together."
"We are." Tsuyoshi turned back around. This time it was Tsuyoshi's turn to kiss his friend. It took all his self control not to pull his partner to the floor. He wanted Koichi as much as his friend wanted him.
"I want to be your boyfriend. A real boyfrien
"I don't like this way either."
"I wish we could be true roommates. I want to wake up in your bed." Koichi confessed. "I want to take you out, and show you off as mine."
"I want to give you something." Tsuyoshi took a ring off his finger. "As long as you wear this, we will be together."
Koichi let Tsuyoshi slip the ring on. "It's like it was meant to be there."
"Just like I was meant to be at your side."
"I want you to have this." Koichi took off one of his rings. He put it on his lover's right index finger. "I'll always protect you."
Tsuyoshi could hear Katori Shingo yelling for him.
"I forgot, I was suppose
Koichi nodded. "It's okay, go to him."
"Are you sure?"
Tsuyoshi left the pantry. He looked back to his friend. "I love you."
Koichi's smile faded. "Hurry up. We can't be foun
"Ko-chan, I've been looking for you." Koichi heard Mabo say as soon as he left the pantry. "I need your help."
Mabo grabbed Koichi and pulled him into the pantry. He
could hear the door slam, then lock. The man shoved Koichi against the stack of
rice bags. The taller man unbuckled his pants, and unzippe
"What are you doing?" Koichi demanded.
Mabo grabbed Koichi's chin in a clamp, and squeeze
"You didn't say that yesterday. Didn't you like what we did?" Mabo sneered.
"What we've been doing is wrong." Koichi said firmly. "It won't happen again."
"Why? What's changed?"
"I'm in love with Tsuyoshi. I won't cheat on him anymore." Koichi decided. "I'm leaving. Don't come after me."
"You really think telling me your in love with someone will make you stop seeing me?" The drummer gave him another hard shove. Mabo put his hand inside of Koichi's shorts, manipulating his penis. "You're hard. You know you want me."
"I don't want you!"
"Remember my promise. If you stop our little meetings, I'll tell your precious Tsuyoshi on you." Mabo threatened. "Then you won't have me, and you won't have Tsuyoshi."
"You wouldn’t' do that."
"Have you forgotten the evidence I have against
you?" he continued. "I'll tell the Manager about your sleeping
around. He won't be please
Koichi knew exactly what would happen. The manager would
call for Tsuyoshi, and his friend would be severely punished. There was even a chance that Tsuyoshi could
become the new favorite. He ha
"I knew a slut like you could see reason." He could hear Mabo opening the container of lube. A few seconds later, the drummer pushed his way into Koichi. He grabbed a handful of the younger man's hair and began to thrust hard.
"Let go of my hair!" Koichi gasped.
"Shut up!" Mabo gave a hard yank on his hair. "You do what I say, not the other way around."
"I want you tonight."
"After curfew, I'll meet you in the bathroom." With that, the drummer left.
Koichi pulled his shorts back up. He looked down to Tsuyoshi's ring. His best friend wanted a commitment. *What would you say if you knew about this?*
Koichi walked past Shingo's bedroom, the door was open. In the half light he could see Tsuyoshi on top of Shingo. His shirt was off, and he was straddling the tall man's legs. Half of his body was covered. The larger man moaned every time he moved.
"That's good," Shingo groaned.
"Do you like it like this?" Tsuyoshi's voice was deeper then usual. . His fingers touching a place on Shingo's back. As he did, his hips moved into him.
*I don't believe this!* Koichi thought, a wave of jealousy swept over him. *Tsuyoshi's making love to him!*
Tsuyoshi turned and looked at Koichi. His eyes were dark with passion. He stopped what he was doing.
"Tsuyoshi, don't stop." Shingo moaned. "It feels so good."
"Ko-chan, what are you doing here?" Tsuyoshi asked.
The taller man turned his hea
Without saying anything, Koichi turned and left. He needed some time alone, to think. He walked without thinking, the anger of finding Tsuyoshi with Shingo. He felt betrayed. The man he thought of as a pure prince was just like him.
Koichi found himself in the yard behin
*You said you where a virgin.* he thought. *You lie
A few minutes passed. He could hear the back door open then shut. Then Tsuyoshi said. "So that's where you went."
He didn't look at his friend. "I wasn't lost."
Tsuyoshi sat down on the bench beside him. "What are you doing out here?"
"I'm thinking." he wipe
"It's really nice out here."
"Not its not." he lied. His friend was right, it was nice.
Tsuyoshi reached out, taking his hand. Koichi snatched it away. His partner looked at him confused. "What's wrong?"
"I thought you would stay with Shingo tonight."
"Why on earth would I do that?" He sounde
"I saw the two of you together!" the words caught in his throat. "You’re a whore, a slut!"
Tsuyoshi flinched. "I've been true to you."
"Sure you have. Tell me, do you go straight to someone every time we're finished?" He accused. "I know your doing it with other people!"
Tsuyoshi looked like he was going to cry. “How could you believe I'd cheat on you?"
"When you go out, do you give hea
"I love you! How can you think that about me?" He gasped. "I'm a virgin!"
"I changed so I could be with you!" Koichi yelled. "If you wanted me to change, why didn't you? Why couldn't you stop sleeping with others?"
"I've never cheated on you!" a tear rolled down Tsuyoshi's cheek. "You're the only one in my life!"
"Stop lying!" He slapped Tsuyoshi hard across the face. "We're over! Do you understand me? Over!"
Koichi got to his feet, and stormed off.
*Why does it hurt so much?*
"Why did I have to fall in love with you?" He
He looked at the ring on his finger. Koichi's ring. "You gave me your ring. I thought that meant you trusted me."
Tsuyoshi could hear the sound of someone moving around
outside the gym. He hoped it was Koichi. He could see in his mind's eye, his
Then Tsuyoshi could hear the unmistakable sound of someone dragging a large piece of exercise equipment to the middle of the floor. Tsuyoshi looked up. Shingo had moved something that looked like a tackling dummy into the gym. He gave the dummy an experimental kick. Satisfied, he began to practice his high kicks. Tsuyoshi watched as the Smap member practiced his karate.
Once, when Smap had first been formed, Shingo had been
picked on by just about everyone. Small,
young, Shingo had been an easy target for bullies. That was, until he took up
karate. Now he was a very tall man with
a black belt. It didn't help that Shingo had a ba
After quite some time, Shingo finally realized Tsuyoshi was watching him. He went to his side. "What are you doing here?"
Shingo put a finger under his chin, an
"We're partners in Kinki Kids, nothing else." Koichi told him.
"You’re lying. Every time you look at him, I know you love him." Shingo's eyes turned hard. "You're my friend. My brother. I can tell when something's going on. So what did he do?"
"He says he saw the two of us making love."
"He didn't believe that you only gave me a back rub?" Shingo asked. "You had your pants on. Didn't he see that?"
"I suppose he didn't."
"Koichi is an idiot."
"He won't believe I'm a virgin." Tsuyoshi confessed. The tears returned. "He called me a whore, a slut. He says I sell myself. Why would he call me those things?"
"Because that's what he is!" Shingo pulled his friend into his arms. "Everyone in the agency knows that if you need sex you go to Koichi. He'll let anyone do anything to him."
"Koichi's changed. He's not like that anymore."
"He only di
"I can't believe I trusted him." Tsuyoshi's remaining walls came down. He began to sob. His friend stroked his hair, promising Koichi would never hurt him again.
Koichi walked. He spent most of the evening walking. With
every step, he trie
He looked at Tsuyoshi's ring. "Why would you give me your ring if you weren't going to be true to me?"
It was close to curfew. Koichi would have to go back to the dorms. If he didn't, the manager would probably send people out looking for him.
*I don't want to go back.* Koichi realized. *I nee
Koichi all ready had a hiding spot. It was a small
gardening closet that was attache
Seeing Tsuyoshi with Shingo had hurt Koichi. Now that he
was calmer he realized he was a hypocrite. Koichi had held Tsuyoshi up to a
Suddenly the door to the shed opened. "So that's where you're hiding!" Shingo yelled. He grabbed Koichi by his shirt, and pulled him into the yard. "He loves you? Do you know that?"
"Who loves me?" Koichi asked confused.
"Tsuyoshi! He would give his life for yours! You repay him by breaking his heart?!" The high kick came out of no where. Shingo's foot slammed into Koichi's nose. He could hear the bone breaking. Then the blood began to flow. Koichi found himself falling. He landed on his arm, he could hear something pop. Then there was an almost indescribable pain in his arm.
"What are you doing?" Koichi pulled his arm
close to him. He didn't fight back. The pain from his injuries kept him from
fighting. Besides, Shingo ha
"No one breaks my friend's heart and gets away with it." Shingo kicked him hard in the ribs. "Do you really think he's like you? He's not a slut!"
Koichi cried out in pain. Then he gasped. "I'm not a slut."
"Then tell me three people in the dorms you haven't slept with! I don't mean juniors either!" Another kick, then there was as horrible pain in Koichi's side.
Koichi didn't say anything. He curled up in a ball. He hoped beyond hope that Shingo would stop hurting him.
Shingo grabbed Koichi's shirt, and pulled him to his feet. "You don't deserve him. Unlike you, Tsuyoshi wouldn't cheat."
"I don't cheat on Tsuyoshi. I've changed."
"You've really changed?" Shingo said sarcastically. "I use the practice rooms to study my lines for dramas. About twice a week you and Mabo use one of the rooms."
"We're just working on a song."
"Tsuyoshi might believe that, but I won't!" Shingo thundered. "Yesterday the two of you started undressing each other before you even went into the room."
"I've only strayed a few times." Koichi said. "I'm true to Tsuyoshi."
"If you where true to him, you wouldn't stray!" Shingo kicked him again. "How is Tsuyoshi going to feel once he finds out you cheated on him?"
"If you’re going to kill me, get it over with. I deserve it." the blood kept flowing.
"You're going to find Tsu-chan. You're going to apologize to him. Then you're going to leave him alone!" Shingo ordered.
"What will happen if I don't?"
"I'll turn you into our manager myself! I'll tell him how you've whored yourself. How you slept with others, including me, when you where his favorite!" Shingo threatened. "Now do what you’re told!"
Koichi found Tsuyoshi in the gym. His best friend was
sitting on the floor, his knees pulled up to his chest. He was staring at the
floor. Koichi went to him, close but not
touching. Koichi's body was beyond hurting.
But the pain didn’t matter. He ha
"Tsu-chan." Koichi began. His voice sounded strange, what with the towel pressed against his nose. His side ached, and his arm. His arm hurt too much to move. He hugged it close to his body.
"I want to be alone." his friend said quietly.
Instead of leaving, the older man sat down behind him. He
didn't want his frien
"There's nothing to be jealous of. You don't own me." Tsuyoshi said coldly.
"I know." Koichi couldn't help but notice the towel was soaked with blood. "I thought our relationship was special."
"It's over between us."
"I'm sorry." Koichi took a handkerchief out of his pocket and pressed it against his nose. It wouldn't stop bleeding. He never had a nose bleed as bad as this one. The nosebleed didn't both Koichi as much as the pain from his arm and side.
"Why did you think I was with him?"
"I thought I saw the two of you together in
bed." It was getting har
"You thought I was having sex with Shingo?" Tsuyoshi asked incredulously. "When did you see this?"
"This afternoon." He gasped. "You were on top of Shingo, in bed."
"Was I dressed?"
"You where covered up. I could see that you weren't wearing a shirt."
"What business is it to you if I take my shirt off?"
"It's okay. I don't own you. You have the right to
be with whom ever you want." The pain in his side got worse. "I was
wrong. I jumpe
"The words you called me. I am not a slut, I am not a whore. I would never sell myself."
"I'm sorry I didn't trust you." He looked down
to the puddle of bloo
"Shingo told me that you were with Mabo yesterday." Tsuyoshi told him. "Why did you cheat on me?"
"Until I saw you with Shingo, I didn't realize how much I hurt you by straying. I've done too much to you to be forgiven." Koichi told him. "I'm sorry, I'm very sorry."
"How many times were you with him?" Tsuyoshi wiped another tear. "Please tell me the truth."
"Mabo's blackmailing me. If I don't sleep with him, he'll turn us into the manager." Koichi felt his own tears fall. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry."
"Mabo's blackmailing you?" Tsuyoshi sounded as if he didn't believe his friend.
"He has evidence. I've seen it."
"It got in the way of Shingo's foot." Koichi
"Why would Shingo hurt you like that?"
"I broke your heart." He told him. "I deserve this pain. I want to give you something." Koichi took off Tsuyoshi's ring and handed it to him. "I don't deserve it."
"Don't worry about that now." Tsuyoshi put the ring in his pocket. "Your arm, is it all right?"
"I think its broken." he admitted. "I fell on it. Shingo didn't break it."
"How did it happen?" Without waiting for the answer he said. "I bet Shingo kicked you and you fell on it."
Koichi nodded. Even with the pain he couldn't lie to Tsuyoshi.
"Let me see your nose." Tsuyoshi went to him,
touching his face. He pulle
Tsuyoshi examined it. "I think it's broken. We nee
"No, I don't want to go there." Koichi told
him. "I deserve what Shingo di
"How long has your nose been bleeding?" Tsuyoshi asked when there was no response. "Too long I bet. We're going to the hospital, if I have to carry you myself!"
Tsuyoshi ran into the main room of the dorm. Shingo was working on a puzzle at a table. Joshima whom everyone called Leader was sitting with his friend, reading the paper. The leader of Tokio had been talked into being the dorm parent to the senior's dorm.
"Leader, can you take us to the hospital?" Tsuyoshi asked.
"You want to go to the hospital?" Leader asked warily.
Shingo looked up from the puzzle. "Who needs to go to the hospital?"
"Koichi, he’s been beaten badly. I think he has at least two broken bones." Tsuyoshi couldn't help but shudder. "There's blood everywhere. His nose won't stop bleeding."
"Where is he?" Leader asked.
"He's in the gym."
"Has he said how it happened?" Shingo's eyes narrowed.
"He hasn't told me." He lied. It took all his willpower not to hit his friend.
"Are you sure you don't know how it happened?" Leader asked.
"We can talk about that later! I don't care how he
was injured." Tsuyoshi trie
"Let's go." the leader ran to the gym, followed closely by Tsuyoshi and Shingo. Shingo knelt beside Tsuyoshi.
Leader gestured, and Shingo moved away from Koichi. Leader then knelt beside him. "What
The injured man looked at the floor. "Someone jumped me from behind. I didn't see who it was."
"You where mugged. We nee
"No! No police!" Koichi insisted. "I'll be all right. Just give me some time to catch my breath."
"I think he must have been hit in the head." Shingo told Leader. "He's acting very confused."
"That's why I thought he neede
"How long have you been bleeding?" He asked.
"I don't know." Koichi admitted.
"Please, let me see your arm." Shingo moved near Koichi. "I won't touch it."
"Keep your hands off of me." Koichi lashed out at him.
"Can you move your arm?" Leader asked.
"No, it hurts too much." He admitted.
Leader looked at it without touching it. "It's broken. I'll call for an ambulance." Leader took out his ketai and made the call.
"You deserved what you got." Shingo hissed at Koichi.
Something inside Tsuyoshi snapped. He jumped on top of
Shingo. The blow knocke
"What the hell is going on?" Leader demanded.
"How could you?" Tsuyoshi began fight against him. "Koichi's your friend!"
"Stop it Tsu!" Leader ordered.
"Why are you attacking me?" Shingo demanded.
"Look what you di
"Wait a second." Leader said. "Shingo attacked him? Tsuyoshi is that true."
"I deserved it." Koichi said. "I betrayed Tsuyoshi."
"Shingo hurt you because you betrayed Tsuyoshi?" Leader asked unbelieving.
"Yes, I did." Shingo admitted.
"You can never answer names with your fist!"
Leader closed his eyes for a moment. Then he opene
"Perhaps that’s' what I deserve." Shingo said quietly. He let go of Tsuyoshi's wrists. "Do what you will with me. If you want to hurt me, I won't fight back."
"Tsuyoshi! It won't stop until you stop it." Leader snapped. "Get off of him."
"I hate you!" Tsuyoshi got off of Shingo.
"Don't hate him." Koichi told his partner. "He hurt me because he loves you."
"I'm not interested in Tsuyoshi!" Shingo growled.
"You love him like a brother, Shingo. You've told me that." Koichi gasped. "You protected your brother when you hit me."
"Yes, I did." Shingo admitted. "I couldn't see you hurt, Tsu-chan."
"I'm sorry Tsuyoshi. I'm really sorry I didn't believe in you." Koichi told him. "I'm sorry I strayed."
"Don't worry about us right now." Tsuyoshi went to Koichi. He reached out, touching him. "I'll stay at your side forever."
"I'll change." Koichi promised. "I won't give you reason to doubt me again."
There was a sound of sirens. Okada came running into the gym, followed by paramedics with a stretcher. A police officer also followed.
"What happened?" the officer asked.
"He was mugged." Leader lied. "When we found him, we called you."
"Who’s in charge here?"
"I am." Leader said. "I'm the dorm parent."
"Can't we do that later?" Tsuyoshi asked. "Koichi's hurt. He needs help."
"No one leave until I get to interview
them." The officer turne
"I was hit from behind." Koichi lied. "There was a gang of them. They over powered me."
"Are you sure you didn't see their faces?"
"No, I'm sorry. I didn't."
The paramedics walked past the officer. One began to
examine Koichi. He raise
"I see two." Koichi told him.
"Can you walk?"
"I get dizzy when I walk."
The paramedics helped Koichi onto the stretcher. They then helped Koichi lay down, an
"I'll see you at the hospital." Tsuyoshi promised.
The paramedics raise
"I'll have to file a report. Can I interview everyone who saw him in this condition?" The officer asked.
"Of course." Leader told him. "It was just the four of us."
'This is a big dorm. Why are there only four people here?"
"It's Saturday, all most everyone is out enjoying the weekend."
The officer went to Tsuyoshi. "What is the name of the injured man?"
"His name is Domoto Koichi." Tsuyoshi told him.
The man wrote it down. "What is your name?"
"Are the two of you related?"
"No, we're not." Tsuyoshi admitted.
The man eyeballed him. "You look familiar to me, very familiar. Do you have a police record?"
"I've never been in trouble with the law."
"Then why do you look so familiar to me?"
"I've been in several dramas." Tsuyoshi told him. "Koichi and I have a television show."
"Tsuyoshi is part of an idol group calle
"Oh, the KinKi Kids." the officer smiled. "My daughter has a poster of you on her wall. Can I have an autograph?"
"Of course you may." Tsuyoshi took the officer's notebook and signed a blank piece of paper. He handed it back to the officer. "Do you need me to answer any more questions?"
"No, that will be all." The officer turne
Tsuyoshi went to the bleachers and sat down. He couldn't
help but notice that the officer got signatures from Shingo, Leader and Okada
too. His mind went to Koichi. He hope